Wednesday, December 29, 2010

year end.hello, twenty eleven.

hello there. been a while.while.very while. because of some activities untold and un-left-able. dont know where to start. but let me tell ya one thing too late; Merry Christmas, may u guys have the wonderful one, showered with gift and joy, also blessed with maximum happiness. i do wish you that. almost 2011. am not a type "resolutionism in new year's eve" i make resolution whenever i want it. man, i mean like so lame if i have to wait for nu year. that would kill. so, today @office in my dept, everyone already took days off since christmas. it's so quiet here. even when u are tiptoe-ing, someone can hear u did that. am so not in the mood for work. well, who is? actually, not-in-the-mood-for-work is not only today, but also everyday since something change here. someone change something here. i know comfort zone isn't a good thing. we have to get out, otherwise someone would change it for us. i dont know what i feel about the situation. i dont wanna say, that i hate it. because i can't judge, yet. but .. i feel like ; is it has to be like this? then, i ensured myself saying ; i am pursuing career. my career in a big multinational company. start from the bottom. and make the most to be the best. but .. in fact, isn't always easy when it comes to PURSUING CAREER. lately, been coming home very late. for some re-work stuff. i hate it. told ya yet that i hate re-work? it's wasting time. nah, i mean is re-working something part of pursuing career and way to be the best? i dont know.there's just no written rules,stated that. or, being scolded by other managers because some faults (sometimes, i didnt cause that) is way of pursuing career? and .. being in charge for something you are not supposed to be is way to be the best in ur career? even .. coming home very late at night, is part of being the best in my career? it is easy to blame someone because putting me in this situation. but, blame isn't solving. So, now everyday, open my eyes, and let my mind think that God plans something BIG for me. And i'll just let the path flow thru. i shall follow. dont fight it. be thankful. Happy almost new year, everyone! do wish you have a best one. And .. am not forgetting to say! SEMANGAT to Indonesian National Football Team for tonite's battle against Malaysia. Guys, i do wish you have the best. WIN or LOSE isn't the problem. just FIGHT first !!! see u next year,soon!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

This is such an early morning post here,in Indonesia. Since I have no special time at office to take care of my blog again, now I blog via phone. I hope this phone is supportive. Well, it's 2 days before D-day of iedul fitri or what we call hari raya. Am just trying to remind myself over and over again,that there's life after the euphoria. So stay on the ground and hold urself.In the end of the month, see how much u can save. I failed, couple of times but I went up and told myself the same mantra as above.and you know what ? I haven't get permit for applying leaving form .. :( but,that's ok. Actually, last years and couple years before was relally my comfort zone. I got a very long holiday, because I was a student and I taught student. But now, I have to learn something really new, which is have a-little-less holiday than last year. Oh yes. I don't know what to write anymore,my brain is kinda stuck. Actually, I'm just trying to waste the time and have a little fun before facing the real world :) and fyi. Yesterday my boss asked me to book meeting room for today, and I messed up by clicking the wrong room. And its just unable to be deleted. Oh gr8! And when I see the invitees, they are all board of sales managers and directors. Oh,I shall drink my amnesia pills. Bye, until later. I hope the meeting will be okay. *scared giggle.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

this is you.

this is you. this is short. i promise. actually, i have been analyzing this thing lately. this is the case : you have a job. its not ur dream job. they paid you little. the environment sucks. the job even worse. you hate your job, posting it everyday in social network so everyone knows how suck it is to be you. And .. 7 months later, your contract ended and you said that its a bit hard to leave your workplace and all of the environment. It seems like you are going to MISS them. the point is : you are simply confusing. i mean COME ON! how come you can miss them, when everyday you are not building any bond at all. All you build is anger and hate. You wish to quit everyday. How come ? And you know what ? before you had that job, you are idle, right ? you are JOBLESS. and when a job comes to you and its not as pleasant as you wish you cursed it til death. Dont you even remember how lame was it to be jobless ? dont u remember that you always posting about how bad it is to be jobless? how are you longing and SCREAMING to have a job ? and when you have it, you act like it’s the worst destiny ever. so, please.. just appreciate every little thing you have by remembering when you dont have it at all. Be thankful for your “sucks” job, because its even sucks to be jobless. Go nag abt your hateful job, but please, be wise about it. Especially in social network. See? Its short, isnt it ? copied from my Tumblr account :)

Monday, July 5, 2010

another text and lyric

My Stupid Mouth John Mayer : Room for Squares My stupid mouth Has got me in trouble I said too much again To a date over dinner yesterday And I could see She was offended She said "well anyway..." Just dying for a subject change Oh, another social casualty Score one more for me How could I forget? Mama said "think before speaking" No filter in my head Oh, what's a boy to do I guess he better find one soon We bit our lips She looked out the window Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker And I could see clearly An indelible line was drawn Between what was good, what just slipped out and what went wrong Oh, the way she feels about me has changed Thanks for playing, try again. How could I forget? Mama said "think before speaking" No filter in my head Oh, what's a boy to do I guess he better find one I'm never speaking up again It only hurts me I'd rather be a mystery Than she desert me Oh I'm never speaking up again Starting now One more thing Why is it my fault? So maybe I try too hard But it's all because of this desire I just wanna be liked I just wanna be funny Looks like the jokes on me So call me captain backfire Oh, the way she feels about me has changed Thanks for playing, try again. How could I forget? Mama said "think before speaking" No filter in my head Oh, what's a boy to do I guess he better find one I'm never speaking up again It only hurts me I'd rather be a mystery Than she desert me Oh I'm never speaking up again Starting now I awarded this song, as the most honest and straight forward song from John Mayer. I dont see any hidden meaning or feeling inside this song. It's all about what we used to through in this life. That's all i can feel and see when i said something wrong to someone. well. until later.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

opto ergo sum

good morning. it's unbelievably unexpected. first of all, my pay day is so late arriving in my account, because of unknown :( then my boss is absent today, while i had so many things to be questioned, requested, asked, and shared :( this is the first day of my period, and .. i had nothing to do. because my boss isn't here :( God, i know it's unfair for me and everybody else to say, that this day is worse. well, anything worse could have happened to me. But, i cant stand of not having anything to be done. :( i did everything i could do. grouping folder, named it, and make them organized ? checked. grouping emails, and put colour to distinguish them into couples of folder ? checked. trying to do allocation, (tho i'm not sure it's right/not) ? checked. searching anything in every folder, just check whether there's unfinished business ? checked. organizing scrapped and flying paper in my desk ? checked. calling & emailing someone to make sure that the tracking is on time? checked. texting with my BF ? checked. updating status via yahoo ? checked. doing messenger with my friends ? checked (thousand times checked.) googling for John Mayer photos, lyrics and songs ? checked. toiletting ? checked. plug in my earphone and listen to some music ? checked. pretend to note something important ? checked. walking back and forth to get some water in my bottle ? checked. and .. this the last thing i always do to make myself look busy, using google language tools, since i am so interested in learning French, so i try it in my own to translate couple of words and phrase from Bahasa into French, vice versa, or from English into French and vice versa. :) then i write those translation in a little note to make myself looookkk buuuussssssyyyyyyy :) and put a "thoughtful expression" in my face :p i hope it's convincing enough. and in this time i'm gonna say, Je m'ennuie means i am bored :( i dont know whether it's right or not. Blame google if it's false :p this is what i wrote, :) well, so basic. i cant think of anything else,to be posted. so i'm just gonna enjoy this loneliness and cold weather ahead. seven hours left. means 420 minutes ahead. and 25,200 seconds to spend. oh God. just if i could runaround and dance, around this cubicle to waste my time. or .. writing poems for my funnyman, expressing how much i miss him and longing to see him. :( jumbled thoughts and exhausted heart. until later.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

life teach me these :)

been a spacious distance of time. tons of stories, but the untold one. simply unimportant. well, do you have a role model in your life ? or even a guru ? someone or something teaches us indirectly. it's none like classroom study. let me tell you something happen in my mind, for these couples of years. and i shall give you description about it, just to make it any clearer. 1st situation : you dislike someone in your work because he/she simply annoying and always disagree with you in any condition. And the way that someone expresses his annoyness is just simply annoying too. All of your workmates are speechless about he/she. That person is just so hate-able. 2nd situation : you were standing in the bus full of people, suddenly an old lady get in. she, of course, didn't get any seat. In front of you, there's a young man about 24, and he simply ignored the situation and keep sitting in his seat, like there's nothing happen. well, the rule is the younger should respect the older, by giving seat. But, in fact, it didn't happen. You feel mad and unhappy with the situation. 3rd situation : we made up something to look better. sometimes we bluffed, to make us look great. You had friend, she loved to make anything look great, by bluffing or even lying. You know that wasn't right. Sometimes, you have to see her "action" when she bluffed about her career, lovelife, and even wealthiness that she didn't really have it, to someone. You want to tell her but it seems like a habit for her that she enjoyed plays role in it. well, i met these 3 situations. and i conclude, that these guys who did something unright was a guru for me. why ? because they taught me that those things were not GOOD things TO DO, and when you did that, well you're gonna be hate-able, or even shooed by other people, or even friendless when you keep bluffing over and over again. yes, they are annoying, hate-able or made us mad, but then just remember that they also taught you important lesson, about the do's or dont's in life :) well, guru can be cover in bad attitude, or even shower with sparks and glittery like a role model celebrity. But those i told you was covered in something different. i dont play teacher or even lookalike teaching you something, like i know everything more than you, guys. But i think it's just thing that i wanted to share for so long. what's good isnt always good. what's bad isn't always bad,well these are the example ;) until later. btw, i miss my funnyman so's been a month and 3 days we've been separated. i'm longing to see you, my dear.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

unwell post.

i had flu, along this 2 weeks. and its not getting any better. me wondering why this influenza stays. when i was a preschool teacher, everyday i deal with kids who had flu, but im not infected. well, once. But then, me recovered very fast. but now, everyone seems to be healthy, but it takes quite long term for me to get healthy again :( i hate it when it comes to breathing difficulty. seriously. especially in the morning, where u shuld be fresh and ready for everything, but ur nose system just dont cooperate well creating the i-cant-sniff-anything-i-sound-so-sick symptom. well, i dont really like rain, and cloudy weather. it does make me feel unreasonably blue. just like this morning. i took this pic from sudirman citiwalk building. i was arriving late in the office. purposively. :D not just because, my body isnt so fit, and my office mate is absent, but there's more reason because simply i just dont feel like going and working. and the other reason, because my mother takes her paid vacation today and tomorrow. oh, now i know that i dont feel okay, i shudve gone absent today. :( maybe i could take permission to go home faster. well, i should. until later.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

you guys are waaaaaaaay too FAMOUS.

the news is just unstoppable. and unavoidable. ariel,luna,and tari are three most popular people that cover the headline and rubrics in medias. i aint no judging, aint no commenting about their "superb" steamy vivid videos. i just want to ask whether media can reduce the numbers of their news that appear almost everyday. i mean, come ooooonnnn i need another MORE IMPORTANT things to be considered. we need MORE IMPORTANT ISSUES to be solved. waaaaaaaayyyy more important than just making someone's steamy videos as a headline. they even appear in some international newspapers. oh dear, they are interrupting my right to have a good news content! :( this is worse. waaaaaaaay worse than i think.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

moody foody

been a week, or maybe more since my very last serious post. well, what's in the world i became a serious creature ? not here. :p last week was a busy week here, in my office. because almost all executive committee are out for sales meeting in Bali. so i was busy preparing every datas that need to be compiled and used for their distibutor workshop there. fun ? it's weird to say, but .. i feel good because at least i was busier than any week before. :) and there's the time, when i worked very late until the office was about to be closed. that was .. like 10 PM, i went out from the office, after had my late dinner while doing my task. :) so, here i am. enjoying quiet corridors and low-noise ambience in the office :) happy ? not so much. nothing much to be done. might save some work for later. Since im gonna be jobless in a week, from now. Last week again, i am asked to label all the envelopes for the workshop, so i have to print, cut, glue and paste the label to the envelope. What makes me happy was, i missed this activity that i already left for 3 months.

i miss those stuff. seriously. last time, i visited bandung, was 2 weeks ago. Me and my funny man went (spontaneously) to our favorite place, Sushi Tei. and here's some shots, that we captured. this is our favorite, crispy roll. yumm :p then we eat a package called Hodaka. but they were running out of scallop, so they change it into eel, or squid.. err. i forgot. but it was yumm still. and this one smells a little fishy, but i love it. Its fresh fish eggs'. after that, we smiled widely, because we're happy and the food are yummy :) haha.

i am longing for another chance to have good quality moments, with my funnyman, since we live in separate city. i hope it'll be soon.

i miss you.

until later.

chop.chop.back to work ;)

Monday, June 14, 2010


i dont know. Whether im gonna b busy or not,tomorrow. All of officers are out for sales meeting at Island of God,Bali :) I bet i can post something. Been a long time :) Goodnite. Its just a pre post. Told ya. Until later.

Thursday, June 3, 2010


waw.i cant believe this is my last month on the internship time. i've been trying to post, in the mid of my working time. But i dont know why, it's been i was very busy for this 2 days. happy? i can say so. well, all i can feel was useful and needed. that's kind of enough :) well, i shall hit the the bed right now. because i'm not a morning person ;p know what i mean. and .. lets shout for TGIF tomorrow ! goodnight. have a starry nicey dream,everyone. until later :)

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

for the busy thoughts

it takes bravery and strong heart to be somebody at somewhere. and also .. patience. because everything takes time. sometimes it's slow and the other time, it's fast. well, i didnt mean to go mellow or even being desperately pathetic. that's just the way life treats me lately. ah. i sound so delightfully sad, dont i? im in the searching mode. matching mode. up and downs mode. so-called adjustment mode or even orientation. that can cause dis-orientation if you misread all the things. it's a personal feeling, that sometimes u cant force everyone, (even the closest one) to understand. and lately, i've been playing this song from my superb idol,mr. John Clayton Mayer, titled "War of My Life". You can download it for free at i shall give you the lyrics. well for me, it's quite touchy and sensitive :) War of My Life lyric John Mayer : Battle Studies
Come out angels Come out ghosts Come out darkness Bring everyone you know I'm not running I'm not scared I am waiting and well prepared I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of time and there's no where to run I've got a hammer And a heart of glass I got to know right now Which walls to smash I got a pocket Got no pill If fear hasn't killed me yet Then nothing will All the suffering And all the pain Never left a name
I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of time and there's nowhere to run I'm in the war of my life At the core of my life I've got no choice but to fight til it's done No more suffering No more pain Never again I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of time and there's no where to run I'm in the war of my life I'm at the core of my life Got no choice but to fight til it's done So Fight on, fight on everyone, so fight on Got no choice but to fight til it's done I'm in the war of my life I'm at the core of my life I've got no choice but to fight til it's done you should search the song right now. the tune is very nice and will calm your busy thoughts :) well, at least that's my sweet escape for my busy thoughts.
what's yours?
until later.

Monday, May 31, 2010

force major

im STUCKED. in the complication of language. and diversity. i dont know what i'm doing right now. all i want to do is roll over back and forth in my bed with the blanket all over me. but i cant. because i'm an ADULT that has to be responsible for the things that she did. sometimes, i hate being an ADULT and all the things that come within. :( its an unstoppable nature force.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Monday, May 24, 2010

my superb idol

I love him.his music. and all of the things that come within. pictures taken from omg! images. courtesy of Rolling Stone. Not because he's half naked and had a delicious body in this pics (which he did), but also because his personal life (and also lovelife) that poured into his songs, i fell in love with him. i started to adore him when Continuum released, and until Battle Studies out, i still feel the same. 3 words : adorable, sexy and mysterious. i really want to see his show here, in Jakarta. But i also heard from, that he wont play in Jakarta. Should i be sad? or maybe screaming for attention? John Clayton Mayer, you are half of my life.

Friday, May 21, 2010

they DISSAPOINT me and my will of HAPPINESS! so in the mood of writing rite now. you know why? because people, T.G.I.F! what else you could crave for more? there's nothing better in this world, than late wake-up sleep. :) aikey. next month am gonna have a big celebration. wait, next month is June, isn't it? YES. that will be the month of YAYness! :D emails, no messages, no nothing no. :( can anybody find me something to be done? well, actually i do have something to do. but .. i have to WAIT. for another person to finish the data and then send it to me. how patience is trained in this place. :0 then, i saw my boss came toward me, and i directly called his name. yes, he sat near me then, i hope very much he'd give me something to be accomplished. but .. we just talked for a while. and he left, because he had to attend FGD. :( so, no JOB yet. but waiting. :( btw, i went to J.Co yesterday, and the day before yesterday :) and actually i've been craving choco caviar mint from J.Co since like a month. so, then i decided dropping by. and what i heard then, was totally annoying and way too unacceptable :( J.CO wont PRODUCED ANY OF CAVIAR MINT DOUGHNUTS ANYMORE since 1 MONTH BACKTHEN !!! what ???? is it acceptable,people? is it normal ?? IS IT OKAY? Do i Have to say GOOD BYE to this oh-so-delicious escape ?? do WE have to say goodbye to that ? it's unbelieveably unbelievable! i CANT! i CANT! it's the most thing that i LIKE among others stuff in J.Co! :(( and how come that i know the news very late? it's been a month since they stopped producing. how? and when i asked the staff, abt the missing caviar mint, they said, it's because they're running out of ingredients. produce,people! produce, produce! you know PRODUCE IT! i've been burst into sadness, when i knew this news. :(( i know, that this is too much. but, dont we all have rights to choose the thing what we like to stay? oh im so emotional. until later.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

..not good enough

..this day has been a surprising day. because early in the morning my boss, gave me a task to accomplished. (none like usual day) i thought the task was difficult, and i did try hard to understand the concept. but then when i did that, i knew, it was so damn easy. i just had to crosscheck between two datas that contain numbers. i just cant understand, why people sometimes tend to talk in such a difficult "language" that hard to be understood. :( well, that has been a NOTE for me, since the first time i worked. and you know? the feeling that left, or maybe a question that left, after i did that (and all the former tasks that been gave to me) is : AM I GOOD ENOUGH FOR THIS JOB? i mean, do they really need me ? it feels like every command (well, not "every", but most of them) it seems that hard for me to be understood. and i also feel that they dont need me, indeed. :( well, i know im an internship kiddo, they wont give me any important tasks, (which most of them are confidential), or even any decissive duty. But still, the "needed" feeling is lack for me. And at the end, all the question above remains. am i needed ? am i good enough? am i suitable for this? but at least i can be busier than yesterday. :) until later. Thursday seems a busy day here.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010


time passed slowlier than yesterday. for the unknown reason. anw, the yesterday post said that im gonna post about the place that i really loved to visit in my life-after-lunch time. that's not so wide space, but warm and cozy :) After lunch, i used to be so much sleepy, and im afraid i will fell asleept in my desk, so i came here every day. that is my favorite space since 1 and half months ago :p OK. i actually wanted to share abt a personal stuffs that errrr .. not so personal tho. i cant named this thing, because as the title of the blog is random, this is a random thoughts. Believe you me, it's so random. here's the early brief. Have you ever unlike or even hate something so much, but in the future life those become your favorite, or your had-to-do-list, your paid job, or even your career and i-cant-live-without-it thing ? in my case, YES it happens. and it's not only once. it happens twice, and three times, and four times, and so on. not that much, well, let me count then. it happened for like 5 times. :) quite lots. 2005 was years of emo, i guess. since there are lots of men and boys dress the way emo does. Do you remember guys from My Chemical Romance band? if yes, you must have remember their hair and the style. If im not mistaken, they're style is more or less emo style, the same as their music. and i do DISLIKE it. i often made fun and joking abt it with my friend. You know what i dislike about it ? first its the hairstyle, spesifically the bang on their hair. then, their skinny tshirt and jeans. I mean how come men could wear something skinny and has bangs? the point is, me unlikey emo and the style also. sorry. no offense, people :) then, at 2006, i met a man. in a bus that i took daily to go to campus. it's just a zipzap meeting. we gave no phone number. the reason why? he had emo hair. complete with the bang and the skinny jeans and shirt. he's cute, but the hair and his style is so NONONO to me. So, he's no for me. 1 year after, we met again in the same bus. He transformed from an emo-hairstyle to oh-so-irresistible guy, with the new superb hairstyle, that i have to say Hi at that time. The guy with the EMO hairstyle and superskinny stuff, now became my funnyMAN. :) see? how the unlikey can become your cant-live-without-it thing. and the rest was, im just gonna share it shortly, afraid ur gonna be bored by this topic. these are those : * i hate microsoft excel. it's a boring program. and now, i deal with it every single day of my work life. * me no close enough or even love kids. but then, i had A YEAR spent teaching in preschool, and dealing with kids every single day. and .. me myself cant believe that .. I LOVE THAT JOB and also the KIDS. * i had problem when i did my final task for graduation thru college degree. before that, i promised myself never gonna use quantitative method for my final task, because i simply hate it and yet it contains numbers and countings. :( 1 year after, I USED THAT METHOD. for GOD SAKE. and i COUNT all the things that i HATE, all by myself. *sigh Gosh,how life can simply turnover and flap our life. so from now on, i remind myself to beware of what i hate and dislike. Just in case, im turning into someone who HAS to do it or even loves it very much. well, that was it. :) dont bother yerself to read it, if ur bored enough with this kinda stuff.'s random, i know. until later. #anw, my friend, Sasmita, absent for examination today. let's wish her lots of bestluck, shall we? :)

Monday, May 17, 2010

mid-day notes

office today is cold and quiet. everyone, well not so everyone, out for friendly meeting to catch up with the new boss. like i've already told you about. see older posts. and .. the less the people, the colder the office than it supposed to be :s my fingers are hurt, because they are frozen. okay. im back from my life-after-lunch routinity,its what i called toiletnap. why? because i took my superfast nap in the toilet. yes i sit on it. :) ill capture the photos later abt my toiletnap space. :p btw, i took some pictures from my lunch space. i used to be here at lunch with my workmates, enjoying lunch and mid-day sunshine that shines through the big glass window .. and this is what i had for lunch, quite complete fried rice made in my lovely MOM .. and this is what Sasmita, my friend, had for lunch .. not as much as i eat :p anw, i wanted to show you my favorite little space in my temporary office desk,. its just so random, but i just love it :) .. and to remind me always from the loved one, whom lived quite 170km away from here, lately i always wear this .. its wooden beads bracelet. its so dull and old, but i love it. he bought it in his trip to Yogyakarta 2 years ago :) ILU, funnyMAN. aikey, lets figure out what i can do to make me look busy. :) until later.


..hell-o! :) sleepy mood smuthering the first day on this week. since the last 3 days, i didnt sleep really well. oh NO! i forgot to capture the pic the room that i stayed in Bandung. so cant tell you clearly, how creepy was the room looks like :( oh, i've been so concentrateless lately. and i dont like this. it seems that i skip every single part which is quite important. :( anw, the 3 days event that held in Bandung was GR8! :D the selling was GOOD. the crowd was HIP. and the show went WELL. :) i did Thank God for that. i'll post some pictures .. this is the branding space. it's the crowd in the 1st day! im happy for that. and i love the look on the ppl's face when they're curious about our product :) :) overall, the working trip was NICE. and the most important thing, is i build relation. oh, and the zip zap trip that i took on Wed, was crazy. because we arrived at Bandung like .. 5 in the afternoon, and went back to Jakarta at 10 PM. that was the SUPERB ZIP ZAP FASTY trip :) and dont forget .. i absorbed a LOT of THINGS. as my working material :) so .. i have nothing to share yet. because it's monday and suddenly .. my besty YM-ed me, and typed the capital letters into the box and its also suddenly remind me of something .. which was .. I FORGOT HER BIRTHDAY. completely foolish. and concentrateless. see? omg. can i be any foolish and concentrateless than this ? :( i really need a memory booster. for sure. okay.until later. *sigh*

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


..i like holiday in between alias hari kejepit nasional. i love the way it makes the week goes shorter :p its how the workday cheats on the weekend. yeaaayy! :) now, after lunch me and the 'officers' heading to Bandung, for a REAL SUPER GLANCE IN A ZIP ZAP trip. :0 for technical meeting, because there'll be event held in bandung this weekend on Friday. it's only like pulang-pergi trip, so i guess it's going to be tiring :p but, hey tiring because of trip, is better than tiring because ur idle. OMG idle is sooo meee right now. okay, this lunch, one of the big boss, held a farewell party at Paregu because she's goin to resign and go somewhere i dont know. But sorry to say i cant come because of this supertrip technical meeting. well, its okay but i really want to capture the picts in the venue, because it must be really great :) but .. sorry. so, here i am waiting for the other 'officers' give me sign to get rid of this loneliness and come with them. im kinda excited because it's the first time i had a serious trip with the marketing team :) im gonna post after the supertrip, maybe couples of good photos :p i dont know. until later.:)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

..thought that remains

after half day passed (not so for granted), i sense that ; this day is weird ;0 the reason is unclear. But it's just weird in another kind of form that i just cant explain. i miss my former life. :( .. every part of it. i dont want to nag. no, not at all. but there's some part of my mind misses about the life that i've been throughed before. life goes on. but sometimes, memories remain. ... and i hope i can rewind a bit of it.

Monday, May 10, 2010

the after weekend effect

... one thing for sure, my boss is absent! :( and this is weekend hangover. i didnt drunk, but its just the after weekend effect :( its like laziness that wont go, then the sleepiness ahead (torturing my eyes), and the miss-u-so-much-still feeling, that wont heal. :( ohyes, im gonna post something abt the surprised weekend that i made for my funny man, but it just didnt work, because he just cant stay calm, and always asked me lots of question which leads to the surprises :( so he suddenly like, found it out, and asked me straight. Right then and there, i know, i am not a good surprise maker and he's not a good surprise receiver :( 3 days in bandung seems so short or i can say, it's like a super-glance holiday. well, i know, time flies when you're having fun, and in my case, its so right and true :) i arrived at more or less 9.30-ish on May 7, and as the surprise failed, my funnyMAN went pick me up, and as we rode the motorcycle, he took something from his bag and he gave me this .. this is so sweet! :) i love this. then, the day after the arrival, i cant hide my presence in bandung, so my friends, like figured it out and soon after that texted me,and asked me to meet. yes off course, i cant refuse (it's simply irresistible! LOL ),so i said yes. its in the afternoon, goes evening, and we met at a place called Sushi-den. It's located at (sort of) Dago :) the place is nice and the food is good and affordable :) what else you could crave for more? it was raining,not hard but quite annoying, made the atmosphere even colder yet mellow ;p then .. after the gossiping and sipping up lots of laughter and sarcasm cynically phrase, we decided heading somewhere else. So me and funnyMAN, went together for a ride with my friend and her couple to BIP, located at Dago,still. But in the mid of the ride, the tire is collapse and deflated :( my friend was so panic, because it was quite worse. but thankfully, we found this oh-so-lovely-and-helpful-place-thank-God-we-found-this, so we ended up for a while there :p and while we're waiting for the tire to be fixed, i captured these .. and also this one .. and a picture that almost purrrr-fecccttt because its simply mentioned where we are, but someone from somewhere stood up, get captured, totally showing natural force within the situation.:p .. and the last silly picture, captured by my funnyMAN, where i played tukang tambal ban lagi isi angin :) .. after that headed to BIP, for a ketawaketiwi ngehehehe for half hour and i headed home :) happiness that left still until this monday morning :) so, the day after that was a waving good-bye day. And what makes me sad, is i left you, my funnyMAN. for a hope chasing here, in Jakarta. so i think to myself, this is how long distance works. where time plays evil and limit is something that you have to deal with. ..but soon, i dont know when, im gonna see your funny fake smile again :) endlessly missing you.

Friday, May 7, 2010

out for weekend :)

..everyone is out for meeting and socialization of the new "i-dont-know-the-position" kinda chairman, the name is mr.Frank .:p me and my friend, Sasmita, also with other interns' feel so relieved. why? because besides it so SEPI here also we can browse everysites that we want :) isnt it a bless? :)) the cubicles were so empty, and silent. i love this time. so i can post something to my blog freely :) it's a little thing that means a lot. btw, i had a short-short story abt mr,Frank. i think he's a very pleasant man.because every single morning, he walks around the cubicle in every department, (on 16th and 17th floor) and he always greets us with "good morning" and the most important thing, he did it sincerely because he wants us to reply and he looks us in the face when saying it. plus, he's so smiley. :) and.. he even asked me my name,yaaayyyy! :D well, now i already had permission from my boss to go home earlier, because i want to make a SURPRISE for my funnyMAN. because i plan to go to Bandung, this evening :) good thoughts, eh? so, id better hurry, because i had to prepare for the tickets and miscellaneous behind it. updating later :) with the good news of SURPRISEs! :)


okay lets stick to a plan that i created since yesterday. im going to share abt someone that become fashion idol, for her decissiveness and COLD-ness,:) no one else does fashion as BEST as .. btw, do you know, whos in the pic above? well,let me make it more detail .. blur, still? now you got the MOST OBVIOUS IMAGE OF THE OBJECT THAT IVE BEEN TALKED ABT .. now you know? yes off course, it was so damn obvious, and as obvious as her top, so u can see what u shouldnt see behind it ;p it's Anna Wintour, whose life been dedicated to fashion. there are random facts (as random as my thoughts) abt her that i found in the website, i dont know whether you guys know it or not, but these are the facts : *Anna Wintour, OBE (OBE is the title of honour) (born November 3, 1949) is a British fashion editor and the editor-in-chief of American Vogue, a position she has held since 1988. She became interested in fashion as a teenager. *At her early age, she loved to date older men. Name it : more than one. even Bob Marley. *???? *She always had conflict wherever she works, because she said "i loved to work in media and then change them" But most of all, no matter how many people hates her, she's the fashion forecaster. She directs one magazine, and zipp! whole the world realize whats in and out in fashion. she's covering both side, hateful yet irresistible. And even in her 60, she still looks so firm and fierce. she's not only an icon. She's the fashion itself. :) until later. :) #actually, im not going to write any in-depth-share,it's only like i want to share something little about her, esp.the photos. love that a lot :)

Thursday, May 6, 2010


i am no longer idle :) my boss just stepped out to my cubicle and explain about something to me. Wanna know that "something"? it is NIELSEN ADVISOR INTERACTIVE, which i ever learned it before from someone in marketing dept. it is a program that contains data, and not colourful at all. actually the task was quite easy, but i didnt catch a few things back then. thats OK, im going to learn again :p my favorite motto is now : LEARNING by DOING. okay, my BF kept asking me about my presence in Saturday. TBC, still. lately, these things have been a good friend, in accompanying my 8 hours here, in midplaza my sleepy and lazy and sneezy time (because its so damn cold).. above is a half cup of milo (sometimes i take nescafe or nestea) and a pack of OREO, yumm! its time to learn what i missed :( sorry to say, but there's no such thing as VISIT today.*damn :( lets welcoming my new friend, NIELSEN ADVISOR INTERACTIVE! later i'll post something abt .. i shall give u the initial, AW. .. yes,off course after i finish this oh-so-not-colourful-program-but-i-have-to-do-this-because-its-my-job-i-cant-refuse. until later :)


.. and it's 4th day of idleness. well, dont know for sure, because it's still so early in the morning. last week, i bought a magazine that just published in Indonesia. I was so glad i have it, but .. i just havent finish reading it. all i did was rapid reading :( or in-a-glance reading :( because i always read it when i'm about to sleep at nite. and most of the time, the magazine was like .. fell from my hand and left open on the floor, before i feel REALLY finish reading that (that's what i found in the morning). OMG! well lets set the target, by the end of this week, i will be finished reading it. And maybe i'll share what i read .. *doh. i had a plan, to go to meet my funnyMAN this weekend, since my boss had cancel the plan to go to Lamongan with me. I think i can set the time,to go to bdg. but, im not so sure, because i know when i go there, "bokek" will be my middle name for the rest of this month. :p bdg is such an irresistible place to shop and eat and fulfilling the lifestyle. that, what makes me scared and afraid to go there :p well, lets see. updating later. save some thoughts for another idle and freezing time. :) *im wishing today someone from somewhere wud take me out to erase this idleness. YES, anything, anywhwhere, and anytime, but being idle (and frozen).

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

super JOBLESS !

call me, JOBLESS GIRL! because i am. btw .. i want to share my favorite movie ever. this movie spread happiness and possitivity around. i watch it like almost 20 times, and craves for more :) i started to memorize the dialogue, like what Scott said : "Believe you me..." like that a lot. and .. Poppy said something like : "Juggernaut.." im wondering what is that means. still, idle and freezing.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

frozen fingers :s

2nd day of idleness. i cant type well, my fingers so much freezing and will be frozen soon. btw, i found this on my file. i forgot the brand, but i guess it's celine. :p the colour is my favourite, so does the model :) its not celine i guess. figure it out later. :)

with or without you boss is here already, but i still have nothing to do :) okay, so here i am trying to find any possibilities to make myself and my fingers loooookkk busssssyyyyy ;)) i dont know whether its the influence of Tuesday, so i felt kinda mellow. well, lets put all the blame on Tuesday :) i dont know, but now, since me and my BF lived separately, (bandung-jakarta, well its not that far in fact) i find it hard to live life normally. Life seems monoton, and so normal :p and the obvious thing is i feel incomplete. i dont know which part, whether its heart or mind. but thats how i feel, just like Cowok-cowok Belakang Jalan said : ...incompleeeeetee.. (singing). okay, enough. i miss him and the stupidity and all the silliness that we used to share. but it seems so far away right now. im so waiting for this week or next week so i can come to Bandung and see him :( its not the distance, but the availability of me and him that makes everything seems further than before. even now there's operator which serve us with very cheap rate, or webcam with skype and YM, its just different. Its not the same. the most "impact" i felt was last weekend, (my working weekend) when i approved to work, because i just cant stay idle and thinking about something that i cant do anything with it. I started to not realizing any difference between weekend and weekdays. Because weekend means nothing without you. Its just an extended weekdays without work. :(

Monday, May 3, 2010

.. acciddentally

3 factors that kill today : *my boss was absent *i got nothing to do *the AC is terribly freezing .. but thats not gonna kill me, yet. no no no, the idleness isnt strong enough to kill me. Because a very good idea went thru my head like zip zap!! well. its not really a brilliant idea, but its expanding my point of view, suddenly i had idea to browse to It's my company's website, but globally. And .. i found things like .. PRESS RELEASE, FACTS SHEETS, and PUBLIC RELATIONS CONTACTS, which make me kinda sensitive. :s i feel like i missed it. :( sounds weird, how could you miss pressrelease and the kits? i dont know. And, next thing i know was, i read it a lot, and copied them into couple of files, and saved them, in case i want to read it back to back again :p and it helps me, adding material for my daydreaming, wish i was transferred to global scjohnson, (the name is Racine, fyi). well, not so bad,eh? :p btw, i found this logo in their web, and im like fall in love right away with it : this afternoon was so random. :)

working weekend

the picture we've seen above is the crowd on Baygon's event. you know, where im working :) this event happenned on Saturday. no offense, i love to work on holiday. what i like about had a visit, is thats expand my view about this job. (tho, in the end, i got a really terrible worst headache. none like that before) well, but i was happy in the end. many things to be shared, (in case im not extended here :p ) and well, our corporation paid us the charge for the transportation, and honestly, i've never did this or reached this before .. that happenned because, limitation (that we made our own) on the taxi voucher's well, thats not quite extravagant, but its quite a big thing, to spend such amount on transportation. :p the route's that cost on the voucher is from : Lebak bulus-Kebon Jeruk-Klender. Someone said its FAR, and i felt like .. really? off course, IT IS SO FAR FAR FAR AWAY! :O but, i felt good on it.:) as long as i didnt have to take the amount of bucks from my own wallet. well, let me share the complete whole day details in this page: we (me and the marketing staff), went for visit. first, i wasnt quite sure whether it's A visit or VISITS, but i kept going. Because as we all know, id really like to travel along Jakarta, as my knowledge about it is like a finger dirt, (so small and little), so i was so yes about it. and then, after the event that we saw the picture above, we went for a store visit, the route was : Sudirman-Ps.Minggu-Mt.Haryono-Semanggi-Lb,Bulus. was it far? yes.u guys decide :) basically, i loved travelling and seeing stores, so its fun, (except the headache was disaster). but without headache, the trip will be great, i guess. Make sure to myself, wont forget to bring my magic panadol extra everywhere. so. okay, this is Monday. see what i can do with my workinglife now :) ill post if i had something spicy :)

Friday, April 30, 2010

Excitement :o

Im at home already,after a rush afternoon here in jkt.tomorrow is gonna be my first visit to outdoor event its called school to school event.dont know for sure what it is,but im so excited.:) Updating later, to write what i will find there.:)

IDLE is TORTURING i am commanded to be idle and just watch any emails that been CC-ed to me. yes. i watch the conversation. well, i hope they slipped some hot gossip inside, so im gonna be more interesting in reading that CC. (which is never gonna happen, not in a zillion times) so wanna know what i do? wait .. err, well since yesterday .. i officially had a big sweet crush on (not-so-my direct boss) cant tell you the initial, im afraid because its an internal connection so they could read what i wrote. haha. but i will post his photo. *doh (no offense to you, my funny man, ur still the best!) so far, what i did, was listening to music, typing words for my blog, do the-what-not duties, then made form, then daydreaming and checked facebook via phone, and updating status for my YM and FB. :)) fun, eh? well, are u guys wondering did i ever receive any phone calls to my extention? the answer is : yes, i had. 20 times or more. but, how many times did the phone calls was trying to reach me, real me? twice. first it was from, my friend, who sits beside me, and second, from HR dept. Most of the times, i got wrong number which is going to reach someone else, but then connected to my extention, due to the error line. and when i felt so important, because my phone was ringing, it is wrong number. pathetically dissapointed. okay, its almost lunch, and the AC here is so supporting global warming and human extinction to happen faster than it should be. i feel terribly cold, not-so-close to hypotermia, but soon, who knows? yes, the file that ive been requested this morning, has arrived. so it's time to work my ass off in this oh-so-good-and-interesting-i-cant-take-my-eyes-off file. updating later. :)

it was GOOD!

yesterday,as always my workmate,sasmita,absent. :( First thought in the morning was,omg how could i handle all the loneliness and idleness alone? Ok,but i headed for work,tho. A bit late,because of the laziness that creep inside of my body. At work,i desperately hope sum1 would take me out. And...VOILA! SUM1 FROM MARKETING DEPT. asked me to go out for some visit. yippie yada yooo! :)) then, i found myself among the successful city people, with hi tech idioms and low mind understanding (which is mine *doh). Then we headed to somewhere out there called rawasari. As time passed, i made a short connection (well, im trying to get along with them, tho) with a person which is the assistant of brand manager in marketing dept, and she told me more and much from the UNTOLD story. what happening in the company and how the habit works here, and a bit from deep inside her heart like kind of curahan hati thingy. :p well, esp about her boss. cant told you here,yet. the rest of the activity wasnt that important, as i ever did that the last week before. Whats important is I MADE CONNECTION, i met new people, i did new things rather than sit here all day and watch my computer screen as if its the MOST INTERESTING stuff in my life. well. conclusion : i was happy and had good time. even though, when i came back to the office i broke my sole, and i had like to figure out where the h**l is tukang sol spatu, when nowadays everybody tends to be karyawan and staf of whatever company or corporation. :) i hope, everyday, i hope to have a new good surprise comes along the way for my 3 months life of internship! can we say AMIN? yes we should, AMIIIN! :))

Wednesday, April 28, 2010


im gonna write abt another stuff and duff tomorrow. i hope its gonna be a surprising day! ;)

my almost 1 month LIFE

i lived here.literally from 7.20 AM-5.00PM. this is the new live. new cubicle life. This is the life im gonna live for 3 months. maybe more, i dont know. well , this is the start. motivation : salary chaser. :)