Thursday, September 15, 2016

(di) jebak hujan Rabu malam

Di tengah deraan kerjaan yang lagi super panas bagaikan salah satu menu di dalam restoran cepat saji terkenal di Indonesia, hobi baru gw adalah mengeluh. Mengeluh dan curhat. Dan kemudian mengeluh lagi. Gak positif banget ya? Emang. Bahkan kadang orang-orang di sekitar gw pun ikut mendengarkan keluhan gw ini. Ya, emang sih gw lagi playing victim  di sini. Sebenernya gw pun gak suka keadaan ini dan pengen segera berubah. Dan  menurut pepatah (yang gw gak tau pepatah nya siapa) if you can not change the situation, then change the way you thinking, or how you react to the situation. I'm trying, tho. But, it's kinda hard ya :(  

Lah terooossss, apa hubungannya sama terjebak hujan semalam cobaaa?? Jadi, emang ada hikmahnya Allah menempatkan gw di situasi semalam, karenaaaaa ..... adalah seseorang yang gw kenal cukup dekat, mendengarkan keluhan gw sembari terjebak hujan semalam, dan akhirnya merespon curhatan gw dengan mengatakan hal-hal yang menurut gw agak DALEM. 

Lo harus bersyukur, jangan manja, kapan majunya kalo lo cuma under atasan lo (yang adalah best friend gw - well, part ini gw kurang setuju sih.. karena menurut gw, best friend bisa juga jadi good leader), terus satu lagi adalah this is time for you to grow out of your comfort zone. Well, that last one hit me right in the spot. 

Maybe God put me in this situation so i can grow up and stretch. Sebenernya capek juga sih negatif. Semacam gak berterimakasih dan menyebarkan aura negatif gitu ya. Kok gak capek ya gw begini mulu? Hmmm.. gak janji gw bakal berubah 100% becoming so very possitive people sih, cuma mungkin i need some space away from work (even i know, holiday won't make me feel better, unless i'm thinking otherwise) or find some fine tuning in this situation. I don't know. But, i will try.

From Sunday-Tuesday, i will be leaving for Bali for business trip, but it doesn't feel right because i will be 3 days away from Kinanti, and i don't like it. But Momma have to grow up and be an adult, that's why.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

if i can, i'd love to ..

This past few days, i've learned something, that i wish i could share in a proper words. I'd like to but it's unexplainable.
  • All i know was, patience is virtue. And it's applied in every single thing that you do
  • Don't let society, some people, person who has higher level than you, defines who you are, because i've just felt it couple days ago. And it wasn't a good experience. You are what you do, not what people thinks you are
 Let's see how August rolls. I wish it will be rolled out properly and nice.

Thursday, July 14, 2016


Then .. you are now at the moment, where you know, you no longer have the strength to change something. And, all you have to do is take a deep breath, and see where life going to bring you.

Now, isn't the right time to fight back and demanding on what's not certain. Maybe it's time to just face the reality and let yourself loose for whatever happens.

Just follow the stream, but still, keep swimming.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Cheesy Love Song

These past two days, i've been head over heels with Teza Sumendra (cover) song Hotline Bling by Drake. Since i (accidentally) watch his live performance on Kuningan City last Sunday. My opinion was, it's a better version of Drake, far much better. And i can't stop listening to this song for 2 days non stop. It's lebay but i like it.

It makes your mind & heart dance. And body too, of course :)
Here i attached, if you want to dance too!

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Rasanya lama betul ..

Minggu ini rasanya berjalan lambat banget .. mungkin karena saya menunggu THR. Susah memang kalau jadi budak korporasi yang ketergantungan dengan gaji. #sekian

Tuesday, June 14, 2016


There comes a day when you just want to cuddle in your blanket and refuse to do some activities. When you just want to listen to your comfort songs and reminiscing the day you were young and all these (not all, tho) responsibilities is a million miles away.

And, that's the day even when your coffee needs coffee.

Being left in wander, and insecurities isn't quite a good mix.And i don't feel okay with that.

Well, wise man said, this too, shall pass.

Monday, May 23, 2016

lemme pause..

Sometimes, during the day (or mostly) i love imagine being in someone else's life. And, it's suddenly re-energize me. Weird. But i enjoyed it anyway.