Updating Software 2019

I never thought i am going back to blogger! But, i think i just missed it.

Hello, 2019, how are you going so far? Mine is mind-blown. With (!).

Seriously, it's never been full of surprises with :

1. Starting 2019, with Appendicitis Surgery on Jan 4th
2. Changing job (again) on Q1, so fast, right?

Am i feeling excited?

Kinda. But i think i am mentally (more) ready than ever. I did some improvement with my thinking journey, trying to make it healthier. I think as we grow older, we tend to forget to update our "software" like processor in the computer or we can say our brain, meanwhile the "updates" (or you can say problems and life challenges) are harder or even needs to be handled differently. So, probably it's true that when i read a quote : 

Every next level of your life will demand a different version of you

Yes, i think it's related with me now.  You can not handle your 31 year old problems, with way of thinking when you were in 22. Even though it's only like, 8 years difference. I need some changes, here and there. And to be honest, it's hard. It's hard to change your way of thinking, and to fight some irrational fear that has lived with you for so many years. But now, i don't have many options but being brave and trying to control my emotion over logic. It's hard but not impossible. I know i can. I just need to adapt and learn. Repeat the pattern. Remembering, in the end, i've only got myself, so i need to treat her well. Like Cinderella said, have courage and be kind. Especially, to myself.